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Friday, June 09, 2006

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 15:29:39 GMT

Hello.. ,it’s been a while since I last blogged..

I’m bored.. and it’s bcuz my “legs” went off to leadership camp. Sigh..

So here I am, sittin all alone in my room, … blogging.. to kill time..

I guess I’ll continue where I last stopped.. which was.. April 10.

If i am not mistaken, that was during my midterm exam for first sem.

Yeah..

Loads of stuff happened since then.

I’ll start with the Redang Trip. :

Went there during the sem hols. Seriously, it was one heck of a trip. I had the time of my life there. The scenery was beautiful, snorkeling wan awesome, the sea water was pristine, the people there were friendly, the fishes there were colorful, the gorgeous white sand… so warm in the morning n cool at night.. just like my comforter.. hahha..and lastly, my friends were just great! Hanging out with them is so fun. Over there, we went karaoke, went “clubbing” =P, went swimming, snorkeling, sight-seeing and blue-sand hunting .. *teehee* we sort of gambled there too. Decent gambling.. no money involved.. mahjong, chor dee, black jack.. hahha.. like a gang of aunties and uncles.

The next activity organized was .. *drumrolls* .. my bday!!

W00t w00t.. fandi picked me up in the morning along with chad n fei then we headed to times square to meet up with the rest of the gang. If I remember correctly, it was han yong n vee keng that organized the party.. =) we went karaoke again in neway, sang like nobody’s business .. hahha.. den they took me to secret recipe and bought me this huge bday cake.. *chocolate indulgence* haha.. they even arranged my candles to form the letter “J”. aint that sweet.. kekkkke.. den I received loads of bday greetings and presents.. n oh.. *thx to.. ahem.. for.. ahem..* blehhhhh…

Moving on… it’s shu’s n vim’s bday!

Had it at saw’s place.. it’s a bbq + swimming party.. his condo is really nicely designed.. really cool.. had loads of fun there too.. had mutton, sparkling juice, crabsticks, chicken wings, chicken balls, n the normal stuff that a bbq party needs.. as usual, I bbqed the food for them while d gang went to swim.. tsk tsk tsk.. but no-ooo .. han yong had to criticize the things that I bbq-ed for them.. “not cooked la.. not sweet la.. no taste la.. burnt d la..mine’s more delicious la”… gggrrrr… biar betul… haha.. jk jk.. n also! we did the stupidest thing ever there.. have u ever heard of anyone shaving a watermelon? Do u even know what I’m talking about? Hahha.. it’s kinda like.. cutting the watermelon’s skin away, without cutting the watermelon into half.. haha.. it’s like a huge red ball when we were done.. of cuz.. another dumb thing that we did .. or rather forgotten was.. we forgotten to eat it.. haha.. had to bring it home in saw’s plastic containers.. watermelons and honeydews.. oiuh.. my hard effort of cutting them was totally for nthg.. haha..

Next!! Our kinda weekly outing..!

Every Friday is movie day.. after class.. all of us will head over to OU to watch movie.. x-men, benchwarmers, she’s the man, poisedon, n so on.. not bad la.. I enjoyed going out in huge groups.. can’t believe how caged up I was back in high school.. sigh..

Han Yong’s bday..

I seriously felt bad about the way we planned his party.. sigh.. kinda told him he’ll have an unforgettable n memorable one.. but I guess.. it’s not as great as I wanted it to be… brought him to chilis for dinner, got him a cake, gave him presents, .. did all the norm stuff.. gosh.. I even feel bad talking about how we celebrated it.. anyway.. the conclusion is.. waikuan is broke for the very first time, since she started being single.. I’ve actually forgotten how it felt like to be broke.. jeezzzzzzz…

After all these outings, it’s back to concentrating on coll.. back to assignments n so on..

I’m really grateful to han yong n chad for trin to help me out with my lessons.. tq to both of u for comin over to my place n tutor me.. especially han yong, I know I’m a sucky student.. I’ll buy meds for u in case u get any sickness tryin to teach me.. haha..

So.. yeah.. that’s about it.. don’t really feel like blogging about everything.. haha.. not really appropriate since I might say things that I regret n stuff.. so I guess.. I’d end things here.. gnite peeps…

N to chad, han yong, Adrian, Audrey, n vim,.. have fun in leadership camp.. hope u guys enjoy it..

“Sippan” fish….

Mon, 10 Apr 2006 13:14:45 GMT

On Sunday, went out for dinner with kaahhong, chien n chad.

It’s the first time I went for those “tai chao” dinner with friends.

When we reached there, all of us stared blankly at the waiter..

(Didn’t know what type of food to order…. =P)

At last, I decided to call for “ ‘sippan fish’ and my fav ‘lala’ ”

Chad n peeps were like totally laughing at my sudden craving to eat lala..

What to do, u guys know I love lalas….

Okay, lala n steamed fish. That’s two dishes.

The other two were sweet and sour pork and fried veg.

It was DELICIOUS!

Seriously, I felt like a stuffed turkey.

I cannot remember the last time I ate like this.

But as usual, I managed to give Chad another fright while he was eating.

Not purposely of cuz..hahha

There was this pregnant fat black cat near my legs

N I am not an animal lover, I get freaked out when any furry thingy comes near me

So yeah,

This black cat bumped itself right into Chad’s leg when I shrieked

After that, we went to the pasar malam at paramount.

Haven’t been there in like ages.

Btw, Chad drove us there..in kaahhong’s precious Vios

It was kinda exciting la..

Cuz, we’re all newbies in driving

And on the way home,

I nearly cost them their lives.

Unintentionally of course.

No one asked them to insult my dear jay *teehee*

Basically what I did was to shake Chad’s hand while he was driving over the highway.

We were going at 100/kmph.

So.. Almost slammed into the car beside us, and the road divider.

Chad’s lesson of the day:

Do not insult jay chou in a car that waikuan is in ^^

Who?

Sat, 08 Apr 2006 18:04:17 GMT

So yeah..

I went to 1u after college on Friday.

Fandi, yee, aaron, n chien totally dragged me there..

Super reluctantly went cuz.. Yeah.. din want to see that ass there

I aint mentioning what happened there..

However.. What I want to blog about here now,

Is how FREAKIN PISSED I am at some people.

*Gggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!*

Why can’t one understand that violence isn’t everything??!!

So what if u dun agree with what other peeps have to say?

It does NOT mean that they’re looking for a fight.

We are educated.

UNLIKE those uncivilized people who do not use their brain as it is meant to be used.

I dun blame them.

Stupid people dun know that they’re stupid.

Childish people don’t know they’re childish.

And mind u, I aint childish.. I’m just playful.

There’s a HUGE difference between playful and childish.

Anyway,

It’s totally lame to think that violence is the way to solve everything.

God~!

I can’t believe what I was told:

“……it doesn’t matter if the person is right, if I dun like it, I’ll beat him to pulp first den only I’ll listen to what he has to say….”

“… I have the upper hand with my connections. Even if he can’t be blamed for what he did, if I dun like it, I’d make sure he suffer the consequences…”

Seriously….

So called “connections”

Such morons…

Like I said...

Stupid people dun know that they’re stupid.

Childish people don’t know they’re childish.

As if they themselves are perfect.

Who died and made u god n gave u the right to judge who should get beaten up?

Who died and made u god n gave u the power to use violence?

WHO?

Here’s a piece of advice for you,

WAKE UP!! GROW UP MAN!

Commitment...

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 11:20:04 GMT

Commitment…

How many of us truly understand what commitment means?

What is your idea of a commitment?

The first thing that comes to my mind is my parents….

Their commitment towards each other and towards my siblings and I is something I really admire and look up to them for.

Their loyalty and dedication for me and my siblings is what you call true love.

It is the essence to build a happy and lasting relationship.

But how many of us can really relate ourselves to be committed to something?

May it be committing ourselves to our family as a son or daughter,

Our role as a sister or brother,

Our friendship,

Our love (BGR),

And even our studies as a student.

Yes,

Commitment plays a crucial role in all these relationship.

But what I’m going to talk about today is the boy-girl-relationship (bgr)

Some people might say I am too young to know what love is.

I admit that I don’t really understand love,

Most of us don’t.

But what I do know is that no matter what,

When you start a relationship you have to be committed.

Otherwise, why bother to love?

I’ve met people that enjoy having flings.

A relationship goes both ways

If you think that what you want is only a fling,

What about the other person?

What if she/he really likes you?

Then you’re actually breaking her/his heart.

You’re wasting their time.

And you’re also leaving a huge wound in them

A wound that might haunt them and make them lose faith in things they believe in

Think about it

And also,

If you’re not committed to your relationships,

How can anyone ever trust you?

How can anyone put their faith in you?

By being your girlfriend,

I’m actually entrusting you with my heart.

I’m relying on you to give me love,

I’m depending on you to protect me and stand up for me,

I’m counting on you to always be there for me.

Because I did all this for you.

I was committed to you, committed to our relationship.

Sadly, you didn’t feel that way,

So now as I’m moving on with my life,

I am determined to only be with a person who can commit himself to a relationship.

Otherwise, I’d just be a loner.

I won’t have any problem with that.

I won’t feel dejected.

I’m sick of being taken for granted.

I don’t want to go through all those horrible experience anymore.

I don’t want anymore bad memories.

Most of all, I don’t want to end up feeling hatred anymore.

Fairy tale

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 13:27:07 GMT

What is a fairy tale?

The perfect love?

A princess and prince riding off into the sunset together?

All my life..

I’ve seen numerous fairytale stories..

Read novels with happy endings

Fairytales are the reason I enjoy reading…

It’s the reason why I love books..

It was the reason why I loved..

Romance..

It’s something inextricably linked with fairytales

Romancing the person I love is something I truly willingly do

It’s something fairytales inspired me to do.

I was really happy at that time.

I really was.

But when reality came crashing in,

I start to have doubts

Is it possible to have a fairytale life?

Can it really happen?

If so, am I that lucky to be able to have a fairytale life of my own?

Am I really able to find my prince?

Someone whom I can pour out all my love to?

Can anyone give me an answer to that?

I don’t think so

It’s sad to think like this.

Someone asked me today if I believe in fairytales,

I couldn’t bring myself to say yes

I wanted to…really badly…so badly

Instead, a harsh “no’ I blurted out.

“That’s a pity, and that’s really sad,” he said

The impact of that sentence really hit me hard.

So hard that my chest actually hurt when I think about it

No one knows how difficult it is to pretend nothing is wrong

It’s not like I want to pretend,

I don’t want to.

What I really want is someone I can lean on

Someone who will listen

My fairytale prince

I’ve been listening to my friends when they encounter problems for as long as I can remember.

And each time, I feel so satisfied when I am able to help them.

I’ve been trying to create fairytales in reality over and over again

Helping my friends in whatever way I could.

Even if I have to sacrifice spending time for myself

May it be close friends or anyone

I would really go all the way to lend them a helping hand

But now,

I feel that fairytales don’t exist for me

They might, for others

And I’m glad for them

I’ve accepted the possibility that I won’t have a fairytale of my own

Which is why I’ve changed

I admit that I’ve become extremely morbid, but only when it come about my life

Anyway, no matter what,

I’m still me

I am still the same person who will care for people.

I still am n I always will.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Tue, 28 Mar 2006 09:16:19 GMT

Though it happened so long ago,

Have I really already let go?

I guess that’s how life is,

I shouldn’t get mad, I shouldn’t get pissed,

There’s always a reason for everything,

Well…

I believe there is a reason for everything.

College life..

Indeed it’s different.

Met lots of people,

Made lots of friends.

But I can only wonder

Can people still trust each other?

Can one guarantee that history will not repeat itself?

Is it true that once a person leave high school

They’ll change for the better …?

And leave immaturity behind…?

Leave all the pettiness,

Leave all the cattiness…

Is it true?

Sometimes, I can’t help but ponder.

Why does absence make the heart grow fonder?

Will I ever trust anyone again?

Am I brave enough to love again?

I’ve been let down by her,

I’ve been hurt by him.

Can I truly put it all behind me…?

People come and people go,

I too have crushes

Infatuation….

But I am haunted

Haunted by my pasts

I fear of getting my heart broken once more

The past wound hasn’t really healed

I admit that

Smiling everyday, smiling in front of my friends..

It’s just a band aid

Covering a bullet wound

Over and over again

I pushed people away

Even though all they did was to care

I let my fear get ahead of me

I can only hope

Hope that I can stop being obsessed

Hope that I can really give myself a care free life

And believe in friendship and love once more

maple-lysious? ... ouch....

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 14:30:53 GMT

today.. i woke up at 10am.. it's like super early for me.. cuz usually on sats.. i wake up at at least 12 noon..

yeah... went to the temple with my mom.. .. to thank the.. erm.. oh yeah! goddess.. hahha.. to thank her on my so so ok results.. i felt bad.. cuz i kinda went unwillingly.. oh well..

yeah.. den at 12...alex called to say he'll meet me at tmn bahagia lrt atation around 12 something.. which is soon. very very soon...
i quickly dashed to the bathroom to bathe n get ready.. i'm like.. " how am i suppose to get ready that quick!!" aiyoh... dun la forget i'm a gal.. i take super long to get dressed.. *smacks head*

when i'm finally done.. there were 2 missed calls on my hp.. i ignored it cuz my sis is already yelling at me like some mad woman to get my ass in the car... yea yea.. i know i hav barbaric family members

on the way.. lex called to ffk.. dc tribe called him for interview.. swt.. n since i'm super understanding.. haha.. i let him off the hook.. tellin him.. " oh.. no problem.. it's alrite.. i'm totally not upset about standing at the lrt station lookin like some foolish retard with no specific place to go.. " lol.. n people were kinda giving me the look.. cuz i din enter the trains.. about 7 trains came n went.. .. there i sat.. lookin oh so innocent.. hahha.. waiting for guan to come.. luckily lex had enuff brain cells to call n accompany me on the phone till guan came..

took lrt n monorail to sungei wang.. i bought my tickets frm the counter.. since i din hav T&G .queued up patiently .. while guan.. who hav T&G ..senang senang wait for me .. but guess wat? guan had some problem swiping his T&G card causing temporary traffic jam.. hahha.. n it happened about 2-3 times i think.. kekkke.. i swapped cards with him to see if it's really the card that is faulty or the machine gone bongkers.. n... .. turns out.. guan was experiencing minorr face problem difficulties.. kekke...

at sungei wang.. we explored every single floor.. i bought a pair of heels.. about 3.75 inches.. haha.. i feel tall in it. bought a shirt for my brother at this shop that sells clothes with very catchy phrases... my bro's shirt looks like this.. suits him eh? hahha.. my dad n mom totally laugh hysterically when they saw it.. i bought one for myself too.. mine's a lil more subtle.. i din get any scary or too garang words on it.. it's like this.. ----> .. ....

i bought another army tag to replace the one i gave away a year ago.... i gave my other army tag to .. aih.. no need to mention that one la. yeah..back to d army tag thingy.. it costed 10bucks.. ok ok la.. design not that nice. but i have a thing for army tags.. n people wearing them..( guys wearing them.. ) some guys actually look good wearing army tags..

guan bought a necklace.. beaded kind.. u know.. like those that the caucasians wear.. a lil bohemish lookin.. it's not bad lookin.. but then.. we saw this really awesome blazer.. at shibuya.. it fitted guan perfectly.. such a pity that he din get it.. hahha....he was wearing it.. n checkin it out.. when i saw the price tag at the back of his neck.. rm300.. we were like.. instantly.. "ok.. put back.. thank you"..teeeheee. seriously.. guan.. u have to consider whether or not u wanna get that blazer.. it's not very often that u can find something that u like n fits u perfectly....

me.. on the other hand.. look super distorted in all the jeans i tried out.. i so need to work out.. my thunder thighs.. i was getting super depressed.. seeing the manequins look absolutely gorgeous.. in the jeans.. n i look like some chubby fatty shorty person.. gggrrrrrr

pin should have came along with us today.. sungei wang is like filled with punky clothes.. haha.. if only i can wear clothes with skulls design on them.. okay.. i shall stop talkin about skulls.. i dun wanna develope guang pin's punky syndrome.. i have already diagnosed guan with the gpps ( guang pin's punky syndrome).. hehhe.. "ROCK N ROLL WILL NVR DIE!!" ok ok .. stop .. hehhe

oh yeah.. the radioactive n extreme store is like huge.. with 10 times more clothes in it.. so many varieties to choose from.. aiseh.. it made 1u seem .. puney.. guan tried this really funny lookin shirt with a tie design n another one with bowtie design.. the cuttin wasn't really nice.. so we ditched it.. they have nice surf pants there too.. alex n chad are gonna wanna check those out ..

on the way home.. we bumped into ai jin n yik tien.. hehhe.. so unexpected.... i was like totally chattin n babbling with her like aunties in morning market.. LOL..

i'm definitely gonna go back there someday.. i need to get that pair of converse shoes that i saw. i tried it on.. junior size 2.. it's soooooo cute.. i tell u .. terrible.. i'm terrible.. hahha.. i absolutely have to find another day to go back n get that pair of shoes..

here's a pic of wat guan n i saw at romp.. clothes there are not bad.. since i have quite a number of clothes from that place... but i tell u .. that shop in sungei wang.. really shocked me.. not the clothes la.. it's their banner.. wall.. advert.. or whatever u call it.. check it out for urself.. when we saw it.. guan was like totally urging me to snap a photo of it.. well.. here it is..

p.s.. i just realised that i can see the reflection of guan's leg and me in the far left of that pic... LOL

* till the next time i feel like blogging....*
ciao~~

sigh...

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 06:37:06 GMT

spm results are comin out soon...

i'm very worried.......

wat if i totally did horribly?

wat if i can't continue my course in college....wat am i to do then?

or wat if the skool dun let me collect my results?

i heard from wern loong that pn teh c.h. told him that.. if u have dyed hair... n not wear appropriate clothes.. u can't collect ur results..

our hairs hav to be black in colour...

how awful is that.... damn......

n to those who haven returned their library books... pls do so.. becuz if ya dun.. u'll be barred from collecting ur results too...

cis betul....

" la la "...... where? where? LOL

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 13:23:37 GMT

sigh.. hahha... i just dun hav any idea wat to blog about...
i'll just let pics do the job for me =P
this time.. it's klcc..
chad la.. mambo mambo on sale.. hehhhe..
alex's not in the pic cuz he's bz tryin on his surf pants...
n pya went to look fer her dad..
so.. it's just me, chad, guan, n gp...snappin pics..
panjang tangan guang pin took these pics.. cuz my hands are too short..
hav to stand in between both of the "twin towers" so that i can be seen..
n i just realised.. gp is like in almost every pic!
.. that punk.. alwiz going "rock n roll will nvr die!".. jeeeeheeeee...
he just love showin me his lovely "3rd" finger
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